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| Wow, so I was working this week and realized I haven't been keeping track of things. That in turn led me to realize that it's May. I don't remember much about April. I think I'm finally hitting the end of that transition after college. Yeahlp, it's the rest of my life. I just worked two weeks and didn't realize time passed. Well, I do have a problem with that: I hate that. Yeah, that's my problem. While I do want my work schedule to fly by to the point where I've been working and don't realize how long it's been, I don't want the rest of my life to follow suit. I guess that's telltale of what my life has been recently. So I'm kind of trying to struggle past that. I don't want my life to be just about work, but there's been a lot of it in my life lately. And as an update, that's really all I've been up to. Things have happened here & there, but mostly I've just been working. Yep, fantastic. love & peace  | | |
| Just a short note. Today, while I was working, it was raining outside. Near the (sort of) end of the day, I noticed that it was raining, but the sun was shining a little. Well, that's a recipe for a rainbow. Yeah, would you believe that when I looked outside, I only saw the end of it? Believe it. I couldn't tell whether it was going into the river, or into the other side of the mountain. Here's why this is more important than just me seeing a rainbow: I didn't go try to find the end of it. Yeah, it was right there, within eyeshot, and I didn't do a thing. I had to work. So I wonder, what's happened to me when I can't even try to find the end of a rainbow when it's so close!? Yeah, that's my problem. I'm unable to chase rainbows. I absolutely hate the whole "growing up" thing that society thinks is necessary to living. love, peace, and making sure you eat all your vegetables
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| So I was driving around today doing things. On my way back a lady rear-ended me. It wasn't anything big, but enough that I was jolted pretty good and it skipped the cd I was listening to. It actually took me a few seconds to realize what happened, but my mind was thankfully working; I threw on the 4-ways and pulled over as far as I could. Well, I guess I realized that I should get out and check for damage. But as I was getting out, I realized that I didn't care that much. It couldn't have been too bad, and, since it wasn't my fault, I bet the other person would be feeling terrible. So when I got out I made sure to smile real nice & big so they knew I wasn't all fired up or anything. When I saw the back of the car I didn't see any damage, and the other person was getting out of her car. I asked if she was okay and we talked very briefly. She was definitely shaken up and I kept telling her everything was fine. We actually hugged before we got back in our cars and went our ways. How strange, eh? I never really intended to be so darned nice about it all, but I couldn't help it. There wasn't any damage, so I didn't exchange info or anything, either. I just found it strange. It did cause me to think about how far we get into our own little worlds. I was in my car. When I'm in my car I feel that I'm in my own little world. Nothing can really affect me in there. Sure, the weather can affect how I drive & see, and people around me can dictate things as well, but I'm inside my little world and everything else is on the outside. Yet here I was forced to forego my own little world and step outside of it. It got me thinking how self-absorbed I can be. There are so many people out there all over the place and I never think about them. I never really look at them, I never really think about the fact that they're out there, just like me. Sometimes all it takes is a bit of a smile and good attitude to feel like you've really done something good. I'd like to make that more a part of who I am. love & peace | | |
| Lets see now, anything I can tell you? Nothing really. I'm not kidding. I worked more this week. I went to PSU friday to get Jason. It was...a trip. Oh, I did go to DC last weekend. Honestly, I have to say it was one of the highlights of my life. Very good trip. So what's new? Nothing. Absolutely nothing. I'm okay with nothing being new, I'm just not really okay with the nothing that's new. Make sense? Good, I don't care. | | |
| Sorry I skipped last week. I'll tell you what happened - I worked. I realized that at the end of a lot of the work, I was real tired. There were a couple of 10+ hour days (including a 13 hour day) of some pretty rough work. I was wiped out physically. Aaaand apparently I had ceased some mental activity through it, because there were some things that I had forgotten. Nothing major, but hey, can't be expected to be ....awww I don't even care. I lost my mind. Anyway, I applied at a couple places, and worked. That's really it. Today I'm heading out on a little excursion. A few friends & I are heading to the capital of the nation for some adventuring. ...or relaxation. Whatever. A getaway in either case. It's much needed on my part. And yeah, I'm watching Star Wars IV. The dvd kind. It sucks. They did a really horrible job of "upgrading" or whatever the crap they were thinking they were doing. There's all this crappy color in places it never was. In my opinion, if they want to revamp the movie, redo it. Leave the old one a classic, and just re-freakin'-do the whole trilogy. There's more than enough $$ in the coffers for that. Get Lucas to spring, he's got enough. -Love & Peace | | |
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